Ryan--I love that kid

It's true, I admit it--I love my children. I love their childlike faith, their spontaneity, their zeal for life and the laughter they bring to my life. Nik and I often celebrate the goodness of God to us as we rehearse the days highlights (and low-lights). I gave them my sinful heart, so our children have a lifetime of war ahead of them. Bummer.

I believe I have learned more from my children than I have taught them. While I long to teach them about integrity, honor and love, they have taught me about my own pride, stubbornness and inconsistencies--especially as I relate to a holy God. I guess it took becoming a father for me to better understand God the Father. Better stated, it took dealing with children for me to understand my own folly.

Ryan (the son pictured with me on the right) turns 12 this week. To write all that I love about Ryan would take a lifetime. You don't have time to read it all and I don't have time to write it. I love his concern for God's created world--especially the animal kingdom, his sense of humor, the way he expresses himself (especially after you've won his trust) and his incredible sense of loyalty. He has taught me to watch out for the quiet heart. His tears have brought me to tears and I love it when we're on a family hike and he just has to stop to watch the frogs or catch a bug.

I remember the yesterdays, too. He had an amazing habit of sucking on his forefinger and middle finger together--back-handed--in such a way that was all his own. He's always shared his room with his little brother, and he almost never complains. Almost.

So as you turn 12 Ryan, I want you to know that you have your Daddy's heart. You fill me with joy untold and a sense of gladness before God that He gave you to me. As you continue to grow up I want to be the one who exhorts you and instructs you in the ways of righteousness. I want to be your first fan. I want to be the one out in front of you leading you to live a life that shows that you believe God, and that He rewards those who diligently seek after Him.

I love you my son! Happy Birthday!